Last Post of the Month
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsNote to self : Never ever call anyone i care about "Baby" again..coz it'll never work out between us..
Anything else like baobei/aiai/darling/dear etcetc is still worth trying~Lols..
Realised that..i still can't build any kind of r/s based on a bunch of lies..no matter it's online or not..If anyone is sincere in making friends..honesty is the basic i needed from any of them..
One can be smart, being capable to deceive people of their real identity..but making 1 lie requires multiple lies to cover up for each other..please make sure it's flawless..coz i'm not dumb enough not to realise if a flaw exist
It's extremely cruel to play with people's sincerity..i can't accept it..get out of my life if u did..
The truth is..i'm not good at lying..since i dun have much practise on it..
coz whatever i don't like to be treated as..i'll try my best not to do the same to anyone else..
Sometimes..i surprises myself on how fast i can be determined to do quit on some stuff..woot~!
Just like how sometimes someone can bring sunshine to my life n yet thurderstorm the next day..
those decision that i made, to make sure it's the last time i cry over *someone*..i never did it again~
Note to self : I'm not gonna be the second "mlk", n i'm determined
Outing~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 1 commentsHmm..haven really post much about the outting we had for the past week..lols..i did really had lottas fun^^
Those 2 pictures on top~ were the stuff we got for visiting the game fest!! Lols..went with beebee wlsp n law..
then meet up with dou/seck/chris n some familiar faces yet not so "close to" people~and some new faces..lols
Well..the 3 standee..the bowman was previously send to me from jing^^ the other 2 i got it myself..now still lacking a shadower to complete my set..i was so angry with my overflooding "yoku" standee which is now.. given to my younger brother..=P..
Anw..i went mad n bought 4 sets of AP reset=.= coz i was super attracted by that cheap $ 18 price._. 4x 18 = $72..roar..spent so much sia..die..i spend the $50 my mum gave me to buy clothes on that..F4F4*guilty*
Ok..go ATM press $$ time-.-
Oh ya..this is the first time i'm meeting wlsp da ge n beebee dar dar~
as expected..da ge was pretty tall..shuai shuai de..hahaha~but can hear his m'sian slang lar
beebee dar dar..chio chio one..just that she was upset that i'm taller than her..wahaha~ though small in size..her walking speed is kinda fast ._. N she's very easy to talk to lar..<--to me..hahaha
Today de Congee gathering..must wait for e photos from cream/beebee/ling dar dar~
Woah..ok lar..i feel a bit bad for leaving HSH n still going for their outing._.
Happy Birthday WlSP Da Ge^^ !!!
Haiyo..Take it as a chance to see all my good buddies..i miss them too~it's better to spend more time with them now..Before i get into uni n get busy..i wonder how much will i change..suddenly thought of slayer..
someone help me tell him to take good care of himself..n i'll miss him de..study well ar~JYJY
Anw..back to topic..it's my first time celebrating birthday at coffee shop too..lols..that place hor..like every block also have coffee shop one..so luan!! Hahaha..eyes become @.@ le
Sry Teng Aiai..coz i forgot to bring her *bag* which i promise to give her one..F4F4..next time i'll rmb de..
First time see thio aiai's bf..hmm..he look better than what i see in the picture wor~LOLS
Then so 恩爱 one..stick together everywhere..hahaha
Then Lao da..give me a feeling that he's the " REAL MAN"
Ohya..that cake was nice^^ thanks cream dar dar for taking the initiative to buy it..x3 it
敗犬女王
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsI find lar..the female lead char..look a bit like sammi cheng..very chio ar~
Well..i do find some of the things they mention inside super meaningful..
like they were explaining the biggest different in the purpose of lying between guys and girls is that...
guys lie to make themselves feel better
while girls lie to make other feel better
when a girl choose to lie..everything is unintentional.. it's just that they don't have the courage to hurt you..so they choose to hide the truth..it's because they don't wish to hurt the ones they love..
Anw..was speaking to dou a while ago..she said something that kinda shock me for once..maybe..ok..it did knock some sense into me..lols..well..not in a much positive way though..
She kinda ask me if i realised that i'm behaving like "mlk"..WOAH!! ( don't think much of u guys know who's she anyway) ._. i just didn't know i degraded myself to her stage of "pathetic-ness"..i remembered how much i used to scold n curse her for having no backbone etc etc previously..how much i hated that kind of soft hearted/dumb-ass woman..who set such a super duper bad example as a woman to everyone else..
I mean..i'm not saying dou is wrong..it's just that i didn't know i have been through so much so much..
so much so that..i've degraded myself to that sickening stage-.-i shouldn't be the one to look at myself right..coz obviously i'm blind..it takes a third person opinion to judge how i've change..seems like she's right afterall..
TIME TO PICK MYSELF UP~ I'M NEVER THAT WEAK!! I'M NEVER THAT STUPID!!
Heyz..dou..maybe..this is the " snapped" that i needed..lols..thank you^^what would i do w/o u..F4F4~
Zero
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Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsI wonder~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsI'm thinking lar..real hard..what i did..but i just get more and more confused..
seriously..i never thought i was a bad person..maybe, just maybe not as good as some people may want it to be..it shouldn't be that bad right?? but why do people keep choosing to leave me..am i really hard to communicate with? am i expected to perform up to everyone's expectation?<--which obviously..that i'm unable to do so..
Is it my problem..was i being too simple? till the point that it bores people out to hang out with me..or maybe i was too common..so ordinary that i can sink right into the background..going un-noticeable to people..
I'm just a girl with a simple life..wishing for a simple life..working for a simple life..too much to ask for? or was it because it's too simple for people who wanna lead a colourful, brilliantly lilted life?
I wonder..what's so wrong in giving all you got..what's so wrong in making sacrifices..
Then again..when i decides to give out so much, so much..but..in the end..it only leads to a path of no return..
i wonder..how long will i be able to hold on..i'm not trying to find a balancing point for how much effort i put in..it's just that when i dun see any progress being made in that relationship..or rather..remaining stagnant and not moving backwards is already a major problem..i get irritated..pissed..upset..frustrated..angry..
Irritated-->coz it's not getting anywhere..i dun even know where i'm getting to anyway._.
Pissed-->coz i can't stop it from moving in the opposite direction
upset-->coz it just cont moving backwards
frustrated--> coz whatever i'm trying..it's useless
angry--> with myself for being unable to do anything._.
I've tried..really..maybe not good enough..i'm not too good at it as well..but i'm putting in my best effort..
your words reminds me of this song that is sang by "信乐团" call "一了百了"
离开我你说是为了我好
可知道这句话伤人不少
就算忘不了没有大不了
反正一切都不再重要
我的心既然你全都不了
何必再继续让彼此困扰
斩断纠缠的爱
从今就一了百了
No matter how hard it get..i fought for it..i cried..i requested..i asked..i scream*into the blanket lar*..*cracking my brain thinking bout it*..haiyo..WTH..where's my self esteem n pride..I thought..it's worth it..coz once i can swallow it all..it'll lead to somewhere..but it didn't ba..i guess..lols..
Somehow..i dun wanna get attention just because i'm being a pathetic freak who can't let go..then cry hard for it when it does happens..i dun need attention because they pitied me..and i'm not sure which type of attention am i getting..which made everything worse..
suddenly feel like playing "xin tai ruan"..brain wash myself for it..repeat repeat! maybe it'll get me somewhere~
give me some courage/determination?
Just let me whine it all out..so i can let it all out..then i can hold longer for it =P
I mean everything is my one sided opinion..but it can get tiring..it's like sprinting for very long yet i can't reach the finish line..lols..i'm made of flesh n blood..i won't last forever..once i'm drained out..i'll stop..if i dun wanna stop..then i'll just snap somehow when i reach my limit ba..ROAR!! but i'm not even sure where's the ending point..what's indicating the ending point-.-
No lar..same praise.."Dun wanna be everything to you..but wanna be something to you"
But i'm not even sure if i even match up that something~sigh..shi bu shi hen ben?
That laughter is my best happiness..i like the presence of that person around me..
or is it i get the feeling that the harder it is..the more challenging it gets..the more i will wanna hold on..i'm not sure myself..this is the first time i fought so hard for anyone to stay with me..or just stay by me..clinging back after i got push away so many times..
Worth??Lols..i think so ba..if not i won't keep coming back again n again..
Afterall..there're times when i'm really happy..it's makes everything nice n warm..giving me energy to continue..*takes a big breathe* I'm ready for it~bring it on~!~!
SORRY DOU!!!
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsthe degree to which one party trusts another is a measure of belief in the honesty, benevolence and competence of the other party<--adapted from wikipedia =P..o.O
Found this picture from my friend's profile..she did this for her partner..i just find it very very sweet^^
The Forgotten~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsAnd I like looking back at pictures that contains lottas memories we share tgt..kinda reminds me of how precious someone can be to me..be it happiness or sadness..(though i dun really take much photos)..lols..
Will i be forgotten by someone? the way i can forget some people who used to play a part in my life..their memories sorta just faded away as time passes..maybe it was coz i was too young at that moment~or was it coz it's part of human nature..i mean none of us were build with eternal memories right?
Treasure what you have now~ coz ever lasting seems pretty impossible..haha..
U & I
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsMovies!!
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsEeek..changing into some no-lifer anw~ Dun seems to have the mode to go out much either..
Go Out = $$ = Siansation~
Watched a lot of movies online~ including Slumdog Millionair, Mummy III, rewatch the Matrix series<--lols Mulan 2, high school musical etcetc..wah..like all illegal de sia~ wadever..like i care..
I'm Also finishing the "Hot shots" drama series after my "Boys over flowers"..hahaha~ staying home providing self entertainment is cheap man..lols..at most, pay a little more electricity lor..=P
Ohya..i also created a new record of the no. of hearts gathered with Baby TorTor on Club 2 today..woot^^ so shoik!!
The song we played was 98bpm "Tonight" by Turbo.
It's not a long song~ but it made my day acheiving that^^ hahaha~
I remember i didn't really put in my best effort for it..i was kinda distracted also..it just kinda turn out well~
Gastric pain..argh~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsI was pretty glad that it wasn't genetic untill today=.= Actually it doesn't feel like stomach ache..it's just..pain._.Argh..i dunno how to put it sia..Siansation..
Should have took regular meals instead of waiting till hungry dao BTH then go dig for food-.-
I really took that being young = superwoman._.
VANILLA YAN YAN !!!! OMG
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsThe other one is the "jelly bean"..ok..u all should be able to see it yourself._.
The main point is that I find it weird myself to suck on the jelly bean like at least 5 mins before chewing and swallowing it down..lols..i think i made the $7 can of jelly beans super worthwhile since i can eat that can for sooooooo long~* placing it beside my com so i can suck on it everyday while i play my audi*wakaka..
I think nice food can make me happy=.=
Anw..i feel super ridiculous when someone gets angry at me for something that i dun think i did wrong..argh!! I dun deserve to be treated this way ok..if it's not to your liking..then tell me nicely mah..dun assume that i know every single details of what's to your liking..and what's not..e way u get pissed at it pisses me off too
Being considerate
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsIt kinda involves what other wants and what other are in addition to what you want and what you are.
Most importantly it's build on the understanding of the other person.
Anw..haiz..it's easiler said than done..
i think i made a mistake again..the last thing i wanna do is to trouble any one due to my brainless actions
Thinking in other people's shoes should be something that must be done before making a decision
Eeek..i just didn't realise i made a mistake till i was warn about it._. yiyi<--y so ben dan sia
should be more careful bout the things i do which will indirectly affects people around me..zzz..
Note to self : please improve on this area..
Login my HB mule today..and suddenly remembered that i've actually created a guild myself..lols.. Initially was meant to be a 2 ppl guild,to enjoy "er ren shi jie" with jing one..but oh well..things just sorta change a lot not long after it's been created..so end up become my HB mule solo guild..but i created the very very kawaii symbol of it which i love so much that i refuses to disband that guild..hahahaha~
aiyoyo~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsI'm seriously not good at saying goodbye..i just can't bear..can't take it at all..
I'll most probably just break down right there-.- when i face this kind of stituation..
especially if that someone meant a lot to me..
As days draw closer..the likelyhood that she's leaving kinda grew n grew..
I know her future doesn't depends on me..and neither any of her friends here..i can't be selfish right..it's not like she won't go just because i ask her to anw..
but i'm human afterall..can't help feeling upset that she's leaving~ argh!
i'll pray for her,even that 1 % chances that she won't be leaving._.
Looking back at the memories we made..i know that i'll really miss her..oh god!!
Then who's gonna listen to me grumble like mad when i emo??!!
Jealousy
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsi wanna be a kid~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsMother's Day~
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsBut sadly..i have family outing to celebrate mother's day on that day also..couldn't make it with them D:
Aww..if not i'll be like heading there to see you guys for like 1 hour before i start to head home~
They did have a lot of fun together ar..remember to jio me to go again next time ok~ i'll go de ar~hahaha~
Anw..someone drop by my house on mother's day to give me some donut(<-from donut empire) and mini apple strudel~! Lols..
Not actually cheap from my POV ar..oo..(o.O)
it's not something i'll buy normally ar..
Seriously..i was quite touched by it ar.. It's actually a surprise for me ar~haha.. i thought it was pretty sweet of that person to do such stuff for me ar..=P
"吃在口里,甜在心里" should be the exact words when i'm feeling when i'm eating those stuff ba~ =P
i shall not comment on the " Happy Mother's Day" sticker on the packaging ok~lols..it's kinda funny to see it there..
(of coz..i'm not the mother of that person..roar)
<--Duncha think those bumblebee look super cute??
Ohya..did i mention that i really like my night view of my neighbourhood from my room window..hehe..
Okay lar..the picture isn't very clear..can't say much about it~But i can see pretty far out ar..haha..
i Keep my curtain close most of the time though..to prevent sunlight from coming in during the day..and for privacy reasons during the night..
(well..i can pretty much see everything,anyone is doing from the opposite block..which i think they can see me likewise)
Anw..Happy Mother's Day to all~
NTU acceptance
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 1 commentsYeap..i'll be taking the Electrical N Electronic Engineering course ( EEE )
it's something i sorta wanted to study all along..so i'm actually quite happy with it ar^^
Finally..i've put down such a huge burden off my shoulder..yay^^..woot~!~!~!
Somehow i feel that my life have ran quite smoothly in terms of my "education"..i'm always getting into schools and courses that i've planned to study on all along..i feel that i'm quite fortunate on it ..=P
Haven been studying for quite a while now..feel that my brain is kinda rotting away~
Anw..i think my near future will be fixed for now ba..at least for the next 3 or 4 years..
Someone told me that my age is still young..and being young means that i still have time to mould out my own future, i can still undergo huge changes in my life..and mature emotionally *hopefully in the right way*..
Being young also means that any any mistakes your made in your life is still acceptable to the public and u'll still be able to correct them..that's why one should have all the fun they can get when they're still young..
it's part of growing up stages that i've to go through..eeek..somehow..i'm kinda afraid of unknown changes-.-
But 1 thing for sure is that..if it's something important to me..rest assured that..i will hold on for it..
Anw..tried to bake some muffin out with my mum today~
Tada~the picture make it look like it's pretty pale..lols
Leen dar dar
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentswakaka..she's malaysian though..but she's one of those dar dar i like a lot^^
i remember the first time i met her in ccs2 map..
she was farming coz she was so upset that she died so much that day~aww..
but she manage to 4th job ar~Haha..she's older than me by a bit i think
though she's really a pro in dying..it's kinda saddening~ haiz~
we seldom contact each other..but i can feel the link with her ar!! Lols
Good Buddy forever~!
P/S: xiaoB-->ask GM go die lar..anyhow ban..TMD!! eyes stick stamp de ppl..
Opps..haven been updating blog for a while..guess i was a little occupied with my boys over flowers..hahahahaha~
Sand's name
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 2 commentsBoys Over Flowers
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 4 commentsHaha..there's a need to watch shuai ge(s)~
It's suppose to be screening on channel U this month..but i couldn't wait that long~ heart itchy..wanna faster watch finish..
Just a korean version of the "meteor garden"
"boys over flower" is the name for the manga..
There's anime created also..i think i fell in love with the anime which used to screen on tv many many years ago..then the taiwan drama series as well..this should be the third version i've watch~
The storyline is about the same throughout~plot about the same also..
Just the people acting gives a different feel on it..=P
Perfect!!
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 2 commentsNew Oven^^
Posted by Angry Traveler | | 0 commentsWoot..i'm so excited that i can start cooking right now~Lols
Now..i can bake cookies..cakes..baked rice? wow wow..so much i can do with it^^
**Surfing the net for recipes**wakaka..
Anw..this few days was quite concern about my habit of waking up in the middle of the night to drink water..someone told me it's not good for health..
i tried to goggle bout it..nth came up though..mystery still remains unknown..
But i heard from another friend that drinking water at night will cause water retention the next day..so far..i wasn't observant enough to check if i have any swollen legs showing signs of water retention when i wake up..=P ..I'm just hydrating my dry throat when i wake up in the middle of the night..
kinda hard to sleep with a dry throat around..didn't noe it'll be such a health hazard..lols..
Nevertheless.. my teacher used to tell me that if u ever wanna take a short nap..i should drink 2 glasses of water before u sleep..and u'll wake up around 1 hour later..with the strong urge to pee..lols..try that out guys^^