Fresh Start Again

I just didn't realise..there were "unknown" readers reading my blog all along..
I didn't mean to hurt anyone..i should have been more careful with my words i guess..
Flirting wasn't part of my nature till recently..n i didn't know it's harmful and it's hurting people..
Yes..my intention of all the words i said does matter..
and that true intention wasn't easy to be regonised by any people other than myself..
It was a whole mistake to began with..but time wait for no man..i can't change anything now..

I was hurt in return of my changes..it just kinda seems ridiculous again..
i thought i've change for the better..now it seems like it's going in the opposite direction..
guess people couldn't really differentiate which words i said were real or fake anymore..
Which words comes sincerely from my heart and which words were said to fool around n joke with people..
I wasn't taken seriously when i wanted to be..i was seriously hurt by that..No one trusted me..zz..
Here comes a fresh wave of heart aching moments again..=.=n i just mended the other one..zz..

Yes i know i do have a lot of dar dar..but each of them is unique n stands a different level in my heart..
But i wasn't able to show anyone how much each of them meant to me when they're not able to believe my half the words i said..the level of importance of everyone in my heart differ from one to another..
I'm not a saint..i can't simply treat everyone equally..no one wants to be hurt..
neither did i wanna hurt anyone..nor i wanna get hurt myself..seems like it's too greedy to ask for so much..

I'm sorry to those that i've hurt..i have no idea it would..
Now that i realise that flirting does hurt the people i care about..maybe it's time to change..
I was told that i've change when i started flirting..And now i think i might undergo some changes =.=
Can someone enlighthen me the way=.=
Sigh..life suxs at times like this..
Yeah..guess it's back to Square one once again..