Contacts

No idea why this few days feel like lying on my bed and rot there forever~
Just lie on my bed and sleep all the way^^<--useless self deteriorating my body job Anyway..i finally went to make my contacts today!! after procrastinating for so long~ Think my mum isn't too supportive bout it..cause of the price..it's $160 for 6 months..for the monthly disposable ones..But oh well..it's my choice..n she respected it..=)
I decided not to stay in hostel for my uni days..meaning i'll be spending 2 hours per day travelling to n fro..=.=
Home sweet home right..No regrets..Just make that decision and stick with it..lols..
So i decided to be a anti-social freak when i go there~no harm~I dun need a lot of friends..a bunch of good ones are good enough for me alr..and i do have a bunch of good ones going NTU with me^^ woots!!
ohya..hope i can more determine about my plans to be a vegetarian as much as possible..
trying to at least consume a meal or 2 everyday only on veggie
N i think i'm getting fatter this few days=.= been eating way too much le ..zzz..all fried n unhealthy food
Argh..i'm gonna die young~and i think i deserve it..bloody hell~
Recently..i really feel nonchalant bout stuff..like everything doesn't matters..
seriously..i think i'll only grow when i experience pain..lols..not that i wanna feel those..
it's just facts that i've learn to accept..then accept the fact that i can't change them..then change my view towards that fact..so in the end..i can only give up/withdraw away/can't be bothered from that fact anymore..because it's too painful/too tiring/not worth it to hold on to..
i'm happier this way..i think..
because i won't allow the facts to approach me in order to do any more damage anymore~
I've been failed so many times..lols..i'm kinda afraid that the kind of disappointment i'm experiencing will turn into hatred towards that person who've failed me again n again ._. so it's best to just be nonchalant bout it now..coz 哪里有失落,哪里就有爱 mah..so if i dun care bout it..there won't be disappointment in the first place..
Sometimes i really think that one will feel suffocating, only because they brought it upon themselves..
It's all about the mentality u have towards that issue..once you've cross over that barrier you have built yourself..tada~!~! You will be able to breathe like you used to =)
Btw..i'm quitting audi le ba..lag dao like shit~especially when playing club.. play = more n more pek chek..lols.. Sometimes it's good to be free from responsibility..ye mei you ser mo hao liu lian de lar..quit jiu quit lor~
Somehow i feel that it's way easiler to make online friends in maple better than audi._. for me lar..lols..