Anger management Tips..LOL

I was surfing net and i came across this:
Use "I" statements when describing the problem to avoid criticizing or placing blame.
For instance, say "I'm upset you didn't help with the housework this evening," instead of, "You should have helped with the housework."
To do otherwise will likely upset the other person and escalate tensions.
wow..i didn't know this tactic..lols..it's kinda funny when i read it..
Hmm..makes me wonder about myself~ i don't think i'm those people that'll get angry easily ba~
Yes..i do get pissed at times with stuff..then all sorts of colourful language will come out of my mouth<--of coz..i think very few people have heard it before~that's good..i can't tarnish my decent image! LOLs..lalala~
But...i do keep my mouth shut tight whenever i get pissed..or i'll say something which i don't mean it and regret like mad later on..yeap..zip up my bloody mouth!!
It doesn't take much to let me learn how hurtful words can be..isn't it like invisible knifes stabbing people's emotions around? Sometimes it does create scars that can't be mended forever..
When you get hurt by these words! Be sure to remember that other will get hurt as well..so u'll just STFU~
End up when you clam down..you will find how ridiculously *small* matter you can be angry about~
Yeap..ren yi ren jiu hui guo qu de~But hurtful words is like spilled milk..u can't take it back..
Being angry is taking people's wrongdoing to punish yourself~Not worth it de
P/S:I can still remember the times where i got so angry that i can feel giddy on the spot<--i suppose is excessive blood rushing to my brain<--high blood pressure sia..eee..thought i was about to faint..lols
Being Emotionally unstable would be another case ba..when i get upset or troubled..
it's either i start pouring all my emo shit out or i just dun say a thing about it..
Yeah..so when people ask if i'm ok..of coz i'll say i am..it's a lie..i know..90% of the time it's true that i'm lying..
If u ever found yourself asking this..means that u've sense that something is wrong..then u should know the answer before asking me..isn't it weird that if i said i'm not ok..and you can't do nothing bout it except to worry for me..then you'll start probing into why,what happen,etcetc..which has no meaning into it..since i dun wanna say in the first place..you can try being persistent..i might tell you in the end..lols..
"Persistency leads to giving in"someone used to tell me that..and it actually works for me<--bad habit again..
**i'm not hinting anyone that u should be persistent with me, sometimes it'll have the reserve effect of being annoying**
Okay..now i wonder why i keep using that sentence " are u okay?" since i found no meaning in it..lols
Maybe it's because..i can't find appropriate word to express my concern for someone else..maybe~~
Then it'll fall back to the concept that one should share their problem with your friends whenever you're troubled right..isn't that what's friends are for? But for me..Sometimes it's not within their ability to be able to help each other..so i rather settle it myself than telling the whole world i'm not ok/i'm upset etcetc
Anw..those who've known me well enough..will know that i've this very stupid habit of being " unable to reject people's request" How to put it le..it's not because i don't reject people..it's more like i don't like people to be upset because i rejected their requests..be it helping them or just accompanying them etc etc..Unless their requests will condemn other people's happiness if i go ahead with it..
For example, u might want me to help u do etc etc, but i'm not free coz i needa do etc etc for someone else..then i'll reject you instead.. obviously, certain issues like emotional needs/relationship problems or immoral things won't fall under this category..haha..Someone used to ask me if i accepted him into a relationship coz i wasn't able to reject him..FYI..i never treated any relationship lighty in the first place
I don't make empty promises..and i don't think i've broken any promises to any one before..
**Oh..if i ever did..pls tell me too..mb i was unaware for it**
i'm so proud of myself for holding on to what i believe in^^Hehe~
well..provided that u are able to make me make a promise with u in the first place~
Now i sound like i'm writing something to praise myself/ boost my self esteem..LOLS..
I think i'm too free le lar..that's y i can seat here and type for so long~haiz..
Omg..will anyone be hardworking enough and read till this point of my post..
Heys..if u ever did read through every single word of what i wrote here..i'll be really touched ok..
It's pretty wordy~write in my chatbox n tell me if u did..lols..
Shall stop here now~ B4 people start puking at my blog =X
Take care^^

Next Outting Planned!!

How?!?! It's M18..and i'm pretty afraid to watch it=.=

The guy look so freakingly scary pls..(T.T)
Anyway..the outting is planned by cream dar dar^^xie xie ni~
It'll be on 1st May~ woot~! Labour Day~Most of the people should be free ba~
Plus i wanna go to the new mall at tampines too..double happiness^^
the only thing that's bothering is that it's so far for me._.**depression**least 1+ hour trip
Anw..everyone is invited to join~ since i know i'll be seeing new faces again~
Yeap..since friend's friend will all be welcome..just hope the crowd doesn't go outta hand..lols
But Who cares right..as long as everyone enjoys it^^ haha~
WooTs..can't wait for it~

Heavy Picture Content~

What makes a multi-player online game very fun..
is most probably due to the people playing with me there ba..=P
Of coz..i do enjoy playing with my friends around..this is the first time i attempted to take screenshoots from audi..If u ever wonder how
The Baby Tor Tor that i mention in the blog most of the time look like~
Tada~!!It'll be your lucky Day today^^


Yup..this is a picture Tor took while we'll dancing together^^

I'm really like that picture like mad ..xD..and i know baby tor tor had put in a lot of effort to edit that picture with photoshop~took pretty long to finish~But i thought it's worth the effort^^Turn out quite well..isn't it?

This is the other one Tor edited for me^^ It's still very nice ok~ Though Tor keep saying that it looks shitty~ Nothing will look bad if you've put your heart into completing it~Love it okay^^ He's passing flowers to me..Wahaha..So If Tor ever try to bully me~!~!..He'll end up like this!!
Flower Stuck In his Face Forever!! I'll Keep Spamming "F4"<--reject key..lalala~

Replacement :"XieXie Baby TorTor for making those MeiMei de Pictures^^
I really appreciated your effort ^^ and I know it's not easy~
Stay Happy okay^^"
It's the first few Audition's Pictures i'm saving in my com~
*happy happy* eeks~ Love it (^^)
**Just want 10 minutes~**<--singing..LOLs

Memories of those i treasure

Click picture for full image^^

Ok lar..maybe i'm too free le..but i went to create this pic with my old screenshoots

These are the first batch of real friends i made in maple^^

Most of them are good real life friends now..hehe..

But oh well..the only person there that's still playing maple is most probably me n dou nia..

Dou..stick with me for life? LOLs

Must specially mention : GuGuNeiNei

She's like my older sister^^ The one ALL of us will turn to when we've problems

Yup..she taught me a lot..helped me a lot as well..Duncha agree dou?Lols

She's like the advisor everyone will go to with their problems..

Gugu the most matured person i ever seen..how can she just be 25??!!

Now..i can only wish for her happy marriage?o.O..Haha..is it time yet?

To Lion n love : For a safe labour n a healthy Young Lion^^

Congratz QF for her AAA/A .."a" levels results=.=TMD..y she so pro

LuoLuo : Progress faster with Bibi pls..i see le also feel like bashing u up..=P

Orc : haven die yet?=P Got your uni degree le mah?

Anw..don't think they'll read my blog-.-

But still..i miss each and everyone of them..and my wishes..

each and everyword of it..comes from deep within my heart^^

3 days worth of dar dar to show case

Yup..sorry bout the delay..wasn't in the mood to blog much for the previous few days..
here it is..sry for the wait~

No.3 Dar Dar. Aegeria..(N her extra BF david at the side)
What i knew is that she's Charm de meimei..and not much more-.-
Dissapointed in my myself for knowing so little of her..
But she's quite a nice n decent girl from what i see^^
Last time used to chuu~ her a lot de..whenever she online though..n she did happily reply me^^*unlike some*


Well..this is Ling Dar Dar. No.4 aka aHBLurLing
Gratz on her bishop-hood recently..plus genesis + ress etcetc
How to put it..due to her work constraints..her character is mostly on by boi
Then i always *chuu~* wrong ppl previously-.-
They find the fun in scamming my kisses..lols
Of coz..can see by the way they type^^ ling will be the more enthu one..haha..
Though i do talk to boi more than i talk to her *sad*.. coz boi always sleep very late into the night
Yup..jyjy on your work Ling dar dar^^ hope to see u real soon again~


No.5 dardar**opps..i call her aiai** Teng aiai^^ aka DevilishTeck(<--her lao gong char) aka MissyIcetea
Pls refer to the tombstone above for SS of MissyIceTea..lols
She's one of the dar dar that i'm closer to~ and spend time 3 8 -ing together~
And she likes to collect cute stuff in her lychee tea..lols..will go around fm hunting for cute weapons etcetc
Though she currently inactive in maple~ haiyo~
Like that how to 3 8~*cries* must remember to think of me ok~ then drop by times to times~
Aiai...jyjy in work too..and blissful relationship with teck ok^^
Best wishes from your yiyi aiai~

Love Actually

The song " All i want for chirstmas is you<--i've been looking for it for quite some time le..

Whenever i'm listening to it..i'll feel like watching the movie "Love Actually"

One of the most important show i'll never miss when christmas arrives..

It's a simple story sending a message to everyone that "love is actually everywhere.."

It can comes in the form of marriage couple/friendships/Bf n Gf/siblings/parents and childrens etcetc

In times fo crisis, these love are the most valuable ones u can see around..

Tried to watch it for the 4th time online today..but all the link doesn't work-.-

Haiz..wanna refresh the importance of such simple meaning of love in myself

Since ancient times, love barrel is the hardest to cross

When the hardest of times comes,

my best option is to hold on to the sweet memories that u've obtain in that r/s..

Then accept reality n pull through it..

Devotion is bad nature..unless u are so so sure it's the right person..

Don't even think about getting devoted into anyone

Or the one ending up in bad shape is you, yourself

Changes

Have i changed? i'm the one who should know that the best..and i *think* i did~
hmm..If i ever did change..will i influence the people around me to change as well?
Giving and receiving happiness, helping and being helped..isn't that good encounters?
That's because I feel that people can change simply by an encounter..
I'm saying this..because i experienced some encounter with certain people whom,have changed me..
and i'm pretty grateful to them in a way as well..
Of couse..certain extend of self motivation to change yourself is required..haha..
And i do mean changes in the positive way..not the other way round~
Anw..i wonder if anyone had changed after knowing me..
If u did..do tell me so..i'll be really delighted if i ever did helped u in any way..
WORLD PEACE!!
BTW..introducing my No.2 Dar Dar..
Moon dar dar^^ aka Digitalmoon

Moon dar dar is one of the *easilest to jio dar dar^^
Also One of the first few i got also..haha..
Very easy going and she got the same hair as me xD
Though i hardly see her around..due to her irregular online timing..
and since i left HSH..i haven really contacted her..*emo*
sad!! must remain in contact okay~
oh..i think she's good friend with leas also..lols
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YiYi's way of life~

I'm a simple person of simple taste..so little pleasure which seems so laughable small to others,

seems like the greatest happiness for my life..

but when you feel emotionally unsteady,even wounds that would seems laughably small to others..

It run quite deeply for me..

Yup~ I just want a ordinary life..yet i seek for new excitement..looking out for extraordinary people..

I am weird..haha..I live the way i want it..happy happy life people^^

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Oh ya..i'm revealing the My dar dar's picture on my blog starting from today..

1 per day nia..the sequences is random~So there's no meaning to whom i posted here first^^

So the lucky No.1 is cream dar dar^^ aka iceCreamr1

Cream dar dar is very kawaii wor^^A pro Jumper also..

She's very cheerful and kind to everyone..very helpful also xD

Responsible young lady^^ JyJy In your studies okay..

YiYi will always stand by u~

Hope that u can go to disney land too~once in a life time trip okay^^ fight for it

TIRED

For once..i got nothing to blog about..lols..

Sorry to those who keep check on my blog daily..

Too drained out to think of what to write..

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Temper

Someone told me today that her temper compare to last year..gotten lesser..haha..
I guess it does apply to me as well..human's mentality do mature as time passes~
Sorta like the tolerance level and the acceptance to nonsense is getting bigger..
That person mention that..it's because
"u have seen stupid enough de things,to make u accept that such thing is a small matter.
basically, the world does not revolves around you and dont think too highly of yourself,
you are NOT that important (at least to some ppl),one must adapt this."
That's so true!! Wanna try going over my tolerance level? o.O
There're stuff that i close one eyes on because i don't wanna create a bigger problem..stuff that i most probably would have blew it up if you know me a year ago..now i just wanna peaceful life..**getting old~**
There are "Stuff" that i know that people thought i dunno..i still expect people to tell me the whole truth..
it's more hurtful to me if someone try to lie to me to hide the "stuff" rather than coming it clean to let me know about it..whether i will be able to accept it or not would be another thing to talk about..
Do not try to break my trust..don't ever lie..or you will degrade yourself to the lowest level of lifeform in my eyes..yeah..i might not be that important in some people's life..my opinion on some people doesn't matter much.. but i can be extremely possessive at times..if i don't get it..i'll back out totally..
In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go..but I'll rather forsake every single bit of it if it means your happiness/my happiness..
The more you fall..the stronger you'll get..i'll pull through it no matter what..that's parts and parcels of life..
Do Grow Up TokWanYi!!

I can't believe i'm doing this._.

ToR_sA is the ign of my Audition Couple..Well..Baby TorTor is a name we came up with together..
So it'll be easiler for me to use when i'm blogging..**yeah..TorTor do read my blog**
Initially when i met this person..TorTor was using some other character name OoLEIoO..
Due to some unknown reasons..LEI decided to change to TorTor to cpl my repIac3ment
Anw..TorTor was unable to marry my RepIac3ment..due to some reasons again~
LOL..and TorTor was kinda upset bout it..
According to TorTor..it's like living together..but cannot get married..
To Baby TorTor,
It's not that i mind about begin able to get married in audi or anything..so don't put it to heart as well..
P/S: I might not be the only baby u have..but i wanna mean something to u(^^)
All i can do is to let you feel the sincerity in the words i wrote..
Yeah..i do enjoy playing audition with you..you made the game more enjoyable for me**hug**
Anw..do take care of your health..stay strong~*muacks*

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My mini 2nd step

Oh yeah..yesterday when i saw dou..

FrozenChant:"not going back HSH?"

Tokwanyi:"sorta"

FrozenChant:"wanna come my guild?"

Tokwanyi:"can ar.."

So..end up..tada~i'm there already~The guild size is actually kinda small..but as u can see..

the level is like "WOW!!"o.O!!

And most of them there are active maplers^^

Ohya..this is some SS i got at some random night~

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Nevertheless..those whom i'm pretty close with in HSH..are alr in my BL

Stay in contact ok^^anything need help just find me ar^^

Yan Yan's Madness

My mum's friends given her a large box of "yanyan"
I've been feasting on it for days!!..
Then someone told me that it's damn fattening._.**regret**
The strawberry one was really good..lolz..
i think i've consume least 4 cans of those everyday!! argh!!
Oh well..shall cut down on those again~

Think i got hook-ed on to night life recently..lolz..
Been doing stuff around during the night time n sleeping during the day<--not that it's very nice to sleep in..it's kinda warm n bright during the day..and very noisy!~!
But oh well..i do like the silence during the night hours..
Makes People more emotional, able to think through stuff..
Or in my case..think too much..haha..
Silence is golden!!
Anw..Since i sleep lesser during the day due to the environmental constraints..i have more time to myself as well..
But i'm sleep deprived=.=lolz(dark eye ring!)!@%^!$@$!
Oh ya..i slept at 12 pm today..almost fell asleep on my chair..lolz
Ton to watch movies online the whole night~
Can't expect everyone to lead the same "weirdie" lifestyle as me..lolz

The 100 Truth

Bored out..copy this from siew siew's blog..
too free le..so went to answer it..

The 100 Truth:
001. Real Name :: Tok Wan Yi
002. Nickname(s):: YiYi
003. Age :: 19 this year
004. Horoscope :: Scorpio
005. Male or Female :: Female
006. Elementary :: Ahmad Ibrahim Pri. Sch
007. Middle School :: Chung Cheng High Ssch.(Yishun).
008. High School :: Is this JC??LOL
009. College School :: -Hope to get in one._.
010. Hair colour :: Black <--changing soon
011. Long or Short :: Long..haha..
012. Loud or Quiet :: depends lor<--see who i am with
013. Sweats or Jeans :: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera :: Phone
015. Health Freak :: Sometimes
016. Drink or Smoke :: Drink at times..
017. Do you have a crush on someone :: haha..isn't this private??
018. Eat or Drink :: Eat <--food is life
019. Piercings :: Yea..but the hole close leT_T(dou<--pierce with me)
020. Tattoos :: Nah...don't think will
021. Social or Anti-Social :: Anti-Social<--for people who dunno me..lolz
022. Righty or lefty :: Righty
023. First piercing :: WHen i was a baby~
024. First relationship :: Isn't this private also??
025. First Best Friend :: Everyone is my best friend^^
026. First Award :: Story Telling can?
027. First Kiss :: Y keep asking private Questions=.=
028. First Pet :: Some tortise._.LOL
029. First Big Vacation :: LOL..i'm poor..i dun go overseas
030. First Love at first sight :: I think his name was Garatte
031. First Big Birthday :: Eh..i prefer it small scale^^just a few loved ones will do
032. First Surgery :: Nah...i nv break any of my bone b4 also
033. First sport you joined :: Netbal-.-n i suxs at it

This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice :: Fresh Orange juice
035. Rock or Rap :: None
036. Country or Screamo :: Screamo
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys :: Backstreet Boys^^
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera :: Britney Spears
039. Night or Day :: Night
040. Sun or Moon :: Moon
041. TV or Internet :: Internet
042. PlayStation or xbox :: PlayStation
043. Kiss or hug :: Hug
044. Iguana or turtle :: Turtle.
045. Spider or bee :: Bee!! oh pls..spider is so gross
046. Fall or spring :: Fall..
047. Limewire or iTunes :: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball :: Soccer^^

Currently
049. Watching nba game :: yar..i like..but dun have cable tv..sad
050. Drinking :: i like H2O best
051. Excitement level :: 101%
052. I'm about to :: Eat dinner while doing this rubbish..lolz
053. Listening to :: oo..my desktop is playing My humps
054. Plan for today :: Not sleep till 6 am
055. Waiting for :: Baby Tor Tor to return home~@.@ to pls reply me-.-
056. Energy Level :: Low.
057. Thinking of someone :: Erm..Private.

Future
058Want kids? :: i hate kids.how ar?-.-
059. Want to get married? :: Yep.
060. When? :: EH..not so soon ba..i still wanna play~.
061. How many kids do you want :: Most probably 2 max!!
062. Any name on the mind :: I like Jo n Leo
063. What did you want to be when you were little :: I dun even noe..my future is a haze
064. Careers in mind :: I had no idea..seewhat courses i get into..
065. Mellow future or wild :: Both.
066. Something you would never try :: Cut Botak
067. When do you want to die :: Die at 70

Which is better for the guy/girl u like in the future
068. Lips or Eyes :: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? :: Both
070. Shorter or Taller? :: Taller
071. Protective or Caring? :: Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? :: Both
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms? :: arms..i needa good hug
074. Sensitive or Loud? :: Sensitive..i hate dense ppl
075. Hook-up or Relationship? :: relationship ba
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? :: None
077. Muscular or normal :: Normal ..i scare muscular one

Have you ever
078. Kissed a stranger :: No...No feeling no talk mah
079. Broken a bone :: Nope...
080. Lost glasses or contacts :: yar..i even smash my own specs-.-
081. Ran away from home :: when i was pretty young
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence :: Nope...
083. Killed somebody :: Nope...
084. Broken some one's heart :: haha..i think i did._.
085. Had your heart broken :: Yep..i rather not talk bout it
086. Been arrested :: Nope...
087. Cried when someone died :: yeah...
088. Liked a friend more than a friend :: I guess so

Do you believe in
089. Yourself :: Sometimes...
090. Miracles :: Nope..i rather trust myself
091. Love at first sight :: Nope..
092. Heaven :: Nope...
093. Santa Claus :: Nope...
094. Tooth Fairy :: Nope...
095. Kiss in the first date :: NopE..
096. Angels :: Nope..
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? :: Private-.-
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? :: Okay lar
099. Do you believe in God? :: erm..dunno

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Meeting New Friends once again^^

Pretty glad that we manage to go out together..
Though i wasn't sure if all of you have enjoyed it..
Law n Peiyin seems pretty sian in the arcade(>.<)
Ling n Boi just dissapear from there..lols..
I wasn't sure what they usually visit as well..tell me le~
So next time, we can go some places that you guys like as well~
I really wanted to take a photo..but no one brought a camera T.T<--including myself..
Seriously..i thought the movie wasn't so bad..haha..i kinda like it..
Worth that $10.00 ok~!
Plus..i'm super glad everyone reach home safely..catching the last train isn't fun at all=.=..next time don't play till so late le lar!!
Can i add a comment..that arcade de game is freaking cheap plox!!!
Those shooting game: Only 2 token($1) per person per game..
Other arcade is like 4 token ($2)per person per game..
I kinda didn't expect it to be that cheap..ended up i drop in a hell lottas token(8)into the machine<--for 2 person(4 credits for it instead of 2=.=)
So..If you wonder why me n dou were standing there for so long~
It's most probably because.......i miscalculated the tokens required._.

Btw..
Sorry if we didn't manage to talk much..we were most probably sticking around people we're more familiar with..lolz..hope that we'll be able to communicate better the next time round..
N law..=.=..i really have to say this..i thought u will be skinny(as previously heard from creamy)but i didn't expect u to be so tall as well..it's like watching a stickman + status walking around..lolz..=P..no bad intention saying this wor..dun get angry..
P/S: Saying sorry to someone..i know i've irritated you..I can't promise it won't happen again..But there're stuff i'm not willing to say coz i thought it wasn't appropriate..hope you can understand..
Where's my horror??!!?? Let's catch it again next time!!

Pass My FTT!!

Wheee~ i pass my FTT^^It wasn't as hard and tricky as i thought it would be..
Though the picture is not very clear~ it's still an evidence to prove that i've passed it^^

Now i feel so proud of myself..LOL..well..somehow half of the effort would go to **drum roll**

Baby TorTor..for lending me the **notes**(<--which is said to be used for scamming girl(s))

Somehow it kinda made me feel very guilty towards Baby TorTor if i never pass after receiving the help~!

So it kinda push me to study even harder for it..lols..

Promise to treat Baby TorTor for lunch to thank Baby TorTor for the notes..(<---it'll happen..somehow someday~=P)..

Book a date with me!! ..n burn a hole in my pocket..Lols..

well..i'm pretty happy that i manage to pass it on my first try..yay(^^)

Anw..Someone told me effacer means fade in french..

Feel like my feelings is experiencing effacer!! LOL..am i a attention deficit Kid?

You know it doesn't sound safe to meet people you know online..but oh well..

i feel that it's a way to get to know more people..make new friends from different walks of life..

somehow in the virtual world..

you won't be restricted to meet certain kind of people due to your environment you live in..

All kind of weird n random people do exist in this world..kinda eye opening for me^^

It made me have a broader scope of the world..change my perspective to certain issues etcetc

It's up to your own judgement to see if one would be good or bad to make friends with..

And i'm pretty glad to have meet some of my bestest friends there^^

Nothing is impossible in this world..Hope to make more new friends around~

Final Theory Test

This few days have been madly mugging on my Final theory..
16th April 4.30pm will be the official Time for the test..
Least this time round..i feel that it won't be as bad as my Basic theory ba..=.=
Late 1 time..Nv study 1 time..Third time then pass..LOL
The book is call.."Advanced Theory of Driving 7th Edition-The Official Handbook"
though it doesn't seems thick..the content is pretty amazing..amazingly scary i mean=.=
okay..i know it's pretty much last minute studying..but i still hope that i can pass ok..
Haiz..so long nv study le..suddenly must start memorising stuff again..makes my brain rot!!
Shall mug throughout the night today._.Drink drink coffee~
Received someone's help on it..=P
like very dui bu qi that person if i fail..argh!!
Back to mugging..wish me luck guys!!
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My mini first step^^

This is my new look~

With my TuTu always being there for me**hugz**

Missing u guys~

I was indeed very happy there^^ treated you guys like my family..
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Fresh Start Again

I just didn't realise..there were "unknown" readers reading my blog all along..
I didn't mean to hurt anyone..i should have been more careful with my words i guess..
Flirting wasn't part of my nature till recently..n i didn't know it's harmful and it's hurting people..
Yes..my intention of all the words i said does matter..
and that true intention wasn't easy to be regonised by any people other than myself..
It was a whole mistake to began with..but time wait for no man..i can't change anything now..

I was hurt in return of my changes..it just kinda seems ridiculous again..
i thought i've change for the better..now it seems like it's going in the opposite direction..
guess people couldn't really differentiate which words i said were real or fake anymore..
Which words comes sincerely from my heart and which words were said to fool around n joke with people..
I wasn't taken seriously when i wanted to be..i was seriously hurt by that..No one trusted me..zz..
Here comes a fresh wave of heart aching moments again..=.=n i just mended the other one..zz..

Yes i know i do have a lot of dar dar..but each of them is unique n stands a different level in my heart..
But i wasn't able to show anyone how much each of them meant to me when they're not able to believe my half the words i said..the level of importance of everyone in my heart differ from one to another..
I'm not a saint..i can't simply treat everyone equally..no one wants to be hurt..
neither did i wanna hurt anyone..nor i wanna get hurt myself..seems like it's too greedy to ask for so much..

I'm sorry to those that i've hurt..i have no idea it would..
Now that i realise that flirting does hurt the people i care about..maybe it's time to change..
I was told that i've change when i started flirting..And now i think i might undergo some changes =.=
Can someone enlighthen me the way=.=
Sigh..life suxs at times like this..
Yeah..guess it's back to Square one once again..

Thanks @.@~!!!

If you have saw this new template on my blog~ It's all thanks to @.@..(^.^)
She've spend hours on it to make it possible~aww...xie xie ni!!
I know i'm kinda bad to her..she's doing this while i'm busy m'sian bossing in maple..=.=
**guilty**Sry>.<..not sure if she mind that i reveal her real name..but i shall keep it as the @.@ person~
Truely appreciated it !! And i'm sorry if i ever mis-treat you..
Hope that you can find your happiness real soon^^
Best wishes from me..i know you've done a lot for me..
I love the new template!! thanks!!
X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Recruiting People who are able to withstand Horror Movies!!

I do crave for horror(ghost ghost de) n thriller(murdering) movies ^^
it's just the excitement i'm looking for~though i'm actually quite terrified by it..
Kinda train your heart for it..lolz..**i'm more afraid of horrors**
I do cover my eyes..n so scream at certain times<--not very often though
just happens that i have a bunch of friends who loves to watch horror shows..
while another bunch of them who refuses to do so..
apprantly..i'm hanging out more often with those who doesn't watch..sobs
So i'm now, looking for people who are daring enough to accompany me to watch^^
Any brave soul out there willing to do so??
X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Sexy Hot Voice

Recently..a few people who've hear my voice over Skype or Phone

Commented that i have a nice voice..LOL!!

Some said it's "sweet" while some said it's "sexy"??!!??!!

I find them a little weird..

i've live through almost 19 years of life w/o realising that i've a nice voice

Should i be happy bout it?LOL!!

This is what i heard from them:

"your voice is so sweet..i think i can get diabeties just listening to it"

"your voice kinda turns me on"=.=

Ok..i'm getting random~Mb it's the way i speak to certain ppl ba..

But somehow the rl voice can be different while u hear it through electronics..

Wanna hear my Sexy voice??**raise eye brow**o.O

call me gua..blekx..provided u have my no. lor..lolz

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Answer!! For the post 2 days ago~

If You are reading this..means the 10 questions event is over le..lolz..thanks all for trying^^
Those who get majority correct de..have somehow received their *prize*
Luckily their requests wasn't too hard..
Winner: @.@
Last position : Xia0B<--u broke my heart bee bee dar..F4
i Shall now reveal the answers~
Heyz..know me well ok..do remember it..lolz
Questions :
1. What's my real name?
Tok Wan Yi of coz..unless u are blind
2. When's my birthday?
13th Nov 1990 (scorpio wor)cool hor~
3. Who's my ex-maple dar that i'm married to?
Tokjingyi ar..it's not hard if u know me long enough..
4. Which fast food i favoured the most?
Long John Sliver~ Eh..it's w/o veggie le..x333333333 it
5. What's my favourite animal?
TuTu..isn't that obvious? N it's a TUTU not a pig!!
6. Do you have my handphone no.? What is it..=P
EH..it's 9763xxxx(censored)<--i don't want kids to call and disturb me..F4
7. If u did..did u sms or call me for the pass 1 month?
Or if u don't..least have my msn and added me in either friendster or facebook?
Doesn't matter ba..just stay in contact kk^^
8. Have i ever poured my heart to you? Throw u my emo-shit?
It depends on how close u are to me as well..lolz..
9. Which type of people that i can't stand the most?
i wrote it in my first few posts!!..go read!!
10. Am i flirtatious??!!??!?!?!?!?
Last time not ba..when i'm attached that period..now no more le..i went wild..lolz..
I do flirt a lot now..not only to my dar dar though..as long as it's female..i flirt all gua..
Must be determined to increase my dar dar collection!!

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Happy Birthday Dou~!!

Though she forgot when's my birthday<--wanna slap her sia

I shall still give her my best wishes^^

A bunch of bo xim ppl..u all..broke my heart..x/3..T_T

**So did u Fail your MW20??LOL~**

Anyway..since u have turned 20..

Can start telling ppl u are 2x instead of 1x le..so much diff plz..

Hope u can stay pretty always..n grow a little taller perhaps?xD

Btw..that $2 stuff..is a TuTu..i dun care!! Can't u all tell that it has long ears??!!??ROAR

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

How well do u know me?

This few days very free sia..lolz..my blog suddenly flooded with my post..like 2 post per day..woah!!
Was just wondering how many people do actually read my blog..
Can u people kindly drop by a note at the chat box if u did come visit..lolz..
Can use fake name or whatever..as long as i know can le..=X

Too free le..suddenly thought of how much my friends understand about me~
Here here..if u can answer all these question..i'll fulfill 1 request for u guys..
may it be real life or online~ as long as it's within my means..
Questions :
1. What's my real name?
2. When's my birthday?
3. Who's my ex-maple dar that i'm married to?
4. Which fast food i favoured the most?
5. What's my favourite animal?
6. Do you have my handphone no.? What is it..=P
7. If u did..did u sms or call me for the pass 1 month?
Or if u don't..least have my msn and added me in either friendster or facebook?
8. Have i ever poured my heart to you? Throw u my emo-shit?
9. Which type of people that i can't stand the most?
10. Am i flirtatious??!!??!?!?!?!?
Ten Short Questions ..
u can try to ans via email, msn, sms, chatbox>> etc..lolz
Promise i will fulfill your request^^If u got a reasonable correct no. of ans..
X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Sometimes..

Sometimes..all it takes is a little push and everything will just goes smoothly..

Sometimes..things isn't exactly what u expected it would be..

Haha..i'm glad that i did take the step forward..

Manage to talk to someone i haven really had the courage to talk to yesterday..

I forgot how much fun we used to have in the past..

Maybe we could have been the bestest of friends if certain things hasn't happen..

I know you'll be reading this..=P

Just wanna let you know that i'll be strong and healthy as always..

No matter how things might not turn out right for me..

I know you will be there for me^^

Even if you're the last loyal reader for my blog..

i'll still continue bloging just for your entertainment..

I'll remember u..always always..till i aged n die..

i do mean it though..u might not believe it..

Never underestimate the power of friendship~

Anw..i bought this a few days ago..(when i went out with hara..)

It's only $2. Adding to my TuTu collection..it's those things u put yout handphone in~ isn't that kawaii..

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

HeHe..ok this might look weird

OK..this is a picture i receive from my friend..it's her pet..lolz
It's not an advertisement for smoking or pet ok..just find it cute though..
Hmm..the owner doesn't know i have this blog..=P..shall keep it unknown to her..
Anw..i'll slowly shift this blog away from maple stuff ba..lolz..
Those maple stuff that i feel like posting..i'll post it in HSH blog..blekx..
Do drop by time to time to check out on new updates^^

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Heartfelt words

Been looking around for someone special in my life..

Actually..it wasn't hard if you're just fated for that person..

There might be someone which i feel that..

i can pour my heart out to once again..

Then maybe..i wouldn't be such an emo freak..lolz..

But then again..i don't feel that it'll work out..

Life's too short n harsh for another run of heart aching moment(s)..

Should i go all out for it again?

Anw..

Sleip..if u happens to read this somehow..there's somethings i wanna say to you..

I know i shouldn't let u know it this way as well..but we aren't really talking at all..

This might be the easilest way for me to let you know as well..

So i wanna tell u that let's become normal friends n nothing more than that ba..

I knew it will risk our frienship over this..but it's all over..

You are still welcome to find me n chat around..

But that'll be the end of our so call "relationship"..

i know i'm harsh..but this is the best i can offer u..

I just finally got my will to say it to you..after so long..

You should be clear that i've given you chances..u can rebute on it..

But it won't change my decision..

Hope that we can still be friends..

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Maple Days

What they call "MapleTards"..Ignorant to all outside on-going and prioritise maple as part of their life..LOL..I think i'm one of those..=.=..just realise that mapletards will tend to have a busy packed-up timetable of mapling activities awaiting for them..trying to get a life seems pretty impossible..i find myself rushing back home frequently to attend blah blah blah in maple..then in maple..i have to be where where at certain time..tiring=.=..isn't maple for enjoyment?
"erm..have to be back at blah blah for blah blah" seems to be the common word for me..
Sign..should i go look for another job b4 my money gets drain-ed out again? Times are bad..friends are hard to hold on to..relationships are hard to maintain..lifes getting hard..siansation!!
ANW..Starting to audi more now..since i have a commitment to a person there already..lolz..at least i do play my role and responsibility if i ever did happen to have any commitment..not everyone have the same idea though..Empty promises are common to see..words are said to FU YAN ppl..don't anyone understands how much it hurts to have false hope? I dun really like waiting for people ba..lolz..it's part of the reason why i quarrel so much with jing previously..i dun need sweet talks..i need actions!!
Wanna change my life~taking small steps to it..

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~

Sorry!! I'm seriously am>.<

Haiz..My bad._. sry all..wasted your time..
Special thanks to my BL (quackygal) for rushing here after zak to help HSH on the M'sia boss
Special thanks to Law aka xIvvwvvlx for always coming to HSH's sai bossing=.=
I can't believe both run failed=.=ARGH!!
Run 1 : Mum plug in some fan<--whole house short circuit..blackout
Can't down due to lack of attkers..RUN 1 helmmers push to RUN 2..
Said Sry to RUN 2 ppl..promise to helm them on thurs
Run 2 : Due to the fact that some of them gtg soon..i wanted to rush the whole process and finish it b4 12 midnight..end up i nv check that everyone had gotten into the map b4 i summon=.=
Se-er wasn't in..helmmer wasn't in..bishop wasn't in..
Run 2 failed again..zzzz...
End up i didn't get to helm anyone..i'm so sorry that i wasted your guys de time
yiyi : It's screwed up
Law : Can i make it more screwed?
And he went to summon Targa..<--mad teddy
Should really see it to understand..it's way different than scarlion


Friction do occur sometimes..forgive n forget ba..
Teng dar dar~ i know i've broke my promise again..the other time i told you that i won't let this kind of things happen again..but it did again..haiz..sorry..i'll be more cautious the next time round..we <3 u

X33 all my dar dar^^ chuu~