Some FUN material in my course of study~

Teng's Birthday

Nice Looking cake~Dunno taste nice bo.................. Law's Head..LOLS

Teng Holding the cakie~ ...............................Our first group Picture~!

Omg Omg..can le!! Uploading Pics~
P/S: Sry..couldn't upload this video to youtube at all! Can only load to Photobucket~N blogger doesn't accept their version of shockwave player..n there's nth i know how to fix it..so u guys just click on the link k?
Teng's Birthday celebration at Tampines Mall~ EnJoy~
http://s782.photobucket.com/albums/yy102/tokwanyi/?action=view&current=SNC00135.flv

Oh..we watched the movie " The Proposal" together as well~

Everyone agreed it's a super nice show~Lols..laugh dao siao le~

Anw..beebee dardar insist that i shouldn't pay for the popcorn i shared with teng

(that she bought for herself to eat..n end up by me..eating it all up..zz..coz i was hungry..T_T)

So we used the $8 i refuse to take..n she refuse to receive..and some 10 mins struggle to decide who should take the $$..we had agreement that that $8 should be be spent to buy teng aiai a birthday cake/2 mini one

We ended up outside tampines..at some random pillar..singing birthday song doing some celebration together

Overall~ it's super fun^^It's was lastlast friday stuff alr~

Failed

Seriously..it's getting wordy n more wordy with each passing post...
Actually i have like more than 10 pictures lining up waiting for blogger to fix that rubbish bug they have..that dun allow ppl to post pictures._.
Argh!
Fine..i failed my driving test last fri...it was so "throw face"...sooooooo stupid...
I think i wanna reserve my rights not to say that stupid story out..
just that my car was "TRAP" inside the stupid vertical parking lots..
it's like...move in front..bang kerb..move backwards bang kerb..
i was like " WTH~" i dun even bang anything during my lessons..test that time bang like siao T_T
The tester was like staring at me..giving me the " WTH r u doing face"
So..i just seat there "given up"..anw..fail le mah~
so i made no effort to correct my parking
N i cont banging till he know i've given up~ =X

What can i say~

Does everyone have this..deep dark ugly nature that it's best to shun them away from the public?
Coz i'm practically having this..really really bad feeling coming up from inside me..due to something which seems perfectly healthy n natural to many..
Coz right now..i'm really really pissed at myself for having this feeling, which is morally wrong to begin with..
Coz i can't stop the feeling no matter what i told myself..or brain-wash myself
Coz the fact that i'm running away from it makes it worse..yet i can't stop myself from running away from it..
You know..the best way to run from a shadow..is to just simply turning of the lights..

I truely believe that i have a fully functional brain n just some emotional issues to deal with~
Worse come to worse..when i snap (not that i want to..but it did happened..twice in my life)..
somehow when it goes over my limits..when my fury/saddness reached it's peak..i'll became irrational..I have a tendency to throw every single related thing away..erm..literally threw everything..like down the rubbish chute..
or remove that particular part of brain n heart containing any substances of that particular person away..
It's not easy..but it can be done..of coz..it only occurs after i snapped..my brain gets all this adrenaline rush that malfunction it..kinda like i'm blinded from looking at the big picture..

Ok..the truth is..i did regret that i threw those stuff away though..but that doesn't mean i'll take them back in the end..Hello~I do have my pride n dignity to savage here..i have my own unique sets of characters..removing even the bad ugly side is like cutting out the frontal lobe of my brain..it's permanently there=.=
I can't change it..i can't stop it..n me writing here..
is like opening up my wound for ppl to see that big ugly flesh..n it doesn't matter anymore..coz i'm never that perfect to begin with..the sooner u see it through..the faster i can get over with flitering ppl around me..
I am a emo bitch at times..live with it..
Yet, i still believe that i deserve better~ Or Mb i should take a look of myself in the mirror first ba..

Oh..did i mention? i think teng aiai spreaded her fever virus to me..lols

Minority~

Other than my "China-ppl dominated" course ._. Or "Indians-rulez here"..

EEE School still okay~
i'm just experiencing the feeling of being the "minority"citizen in my own country=.=

P/S: i can't seems to upload pictures._.( My non-error free blog ^.^ )

Lols~

Oooo...i found this somewhere~
Show me your creativity people~lalala~

Dear WanYi,
I ____ you.
You have a nice ______.
You make me _______.
You should _______.
Someday I will ______.
You + me = ________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I want to ________ you.
I would build a _______ just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
Love,_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

Updates

ok fine..i admit that i'm pretty lazy to do updates lately.. besides the fact of my "non-error free" blog._. it's pretty much getting on my nerves alr~

Well..uni has started..despite the fact that i'm constantly lost whenever i try to get to a new place..lost as in..walking around aimlessly trying to figure out their map..with weird symbols on it (ex: N4.1-B2-02)=.=
everything else is pretty much fine i guess..seems like everything will just goes smoothly when time comes..lols..
when i stepped into my 1st lecture last tue..i thought i was gonna be alone n such..
then start babbling bout the fact that i was unwilling to go for any of the orientation organise by my course/the freshman orientation/anything that requires me to travel back during my holidays..etcetc..
scolding myself that i totally deserve to be alone because of my lazy ass- characteristic~
Back to e point..when i was about to find myself a comfortable seat to blend myself into the background that moment..someone called me!! *whee~* it's my sec. sch classmate though..seems like out lecture timing are the same thoughout this semester~ N she live in the same area as i am..so..i found myself..a..travelling partner/a gossiper/a lunch time eat tgt group/a lecture-time entertainer at the same moment..lols~

Anw..skip that social circle part in my "just started n yet to experience any fun" uni life~ Well..talking bout lecturers n tutors..lols..what a bunch of...screwed up freaks! 1st..i would like to grumble that i travel 1.5 hour to NTU to find out that the only lecture for that day was cancelled..then travel 1.5 hour back home..with an emo-ing spirit of coz~ They don't seems to know that i live in a far far away land~N they dun seems to take pity in my traveling hours!!
In addition to that..some tutor came in 30 mins late for lab lesson..thinking that lesson was suppose to start at 2 pm instead of 1.30pm as stated on our time table._.god..how blur can they be~ i was practically rolling my eyeball when he started speaking pl0x..i think he's mumbling to himself..instead of teaching to the class..i did tried not to be rude..and pretending to be paying attention..i mean a good first impression would be nice right? But i dun even think he look up to check out on the class..he's just staring n dictating the PPT slides for us anw..most of my mind drifted of..wanting to finish up that assignment..due to the shortage of time..coz he was LATE!! eh..i dun pay serveral grands per year to receive rubbish education pls..we deserve better!!
**mumble grumble mumble grumble mumble grumble**

Oh ya..i just realise the reason why engineers are good with technology stuff=.= Coz i think i'm about to undergo major techonology skills upgrade in my brain..i used to get all impressed that how come some people know so much about computers..N i just found out why last week.. all along..i thought that it's some coincidence that some of my friends who studied engineering is good with computer.. In actual fact..computing is a Enforce Core subject needed to be taken for engineer students..lols..
okok..i'm not saying i'm willing to take it._.
Plus..i'm quite positive that i'm gonna flunk it=.= I'm seriously catching no balls*Hopefully..the lecturers haven started throwing any* =P
Nevertheless..no matter how bad i might be~i'll still understand more on how this machine is working~ wahahaha..next time..u guys can ask me for computer-crash consultation!! btw..COMPUTING STILL SUCKS..

Just below to the "f*cker airdancerx"ROAR!!

Kawaii Maple Video~

OH ya..check out her videos in youtube..totally cool~lols

Where's DOU!!! **going mad**

"Mo Shui" poem~ aka Ink Poem

风，走过无痕。
——是的，我们的曾经就这样远去。
雨，落下无声。
——是的，我们的美好就这样消逝。
再也……回不来了。
记得我也曾停止脚步，回首，想要握住残存的幸福。
不忘你也曾许下心愿，启唇，想要留下最后的温柔。
可是一切就这样悄无声息地溜走——
既已错开，何谈挽留。
拼了命地与命运赛跑，来不及后悔。
忘了我地与现实搏击，来不及回味。
所以，终于，我们拥有了，又，放手了。
匆匆，还是匆匆。
从开始到结束。
太快，太快。
快得让人不能相信；
快得让我们都不会记住流眼泪。

不是很可笑么？
如果，我可以站在青春的顶端俯视无知的过去。
如果，我可以走过生命的长河回望纯真的年少。
如果，我可以攀上人生的高峰远眺温馨的往昔。
然后，轮回。
无尽。
真的会有用么？
或许，曲终人散。
那么，伊人何处。

X/3

This is a conversation i had with dou over msn~ i was reprimanding her for not reading my blog..lols~
a lot of post was written for her ok..n she nv even read once..roar!! So it went like this..

YiYi : i'm X/3
Dou : dun X/3 le..T.T (i know i'm at fault)<--in han yu pin yin lar..
YiYi : X/3
Dou : X/33333333333333333333333
YiYi : X/////////////////////////3
mine is longer F3
Dou: X/3/3/3/3/3/3/3/3/3/3
mine is broken into more pieces

Another 1 more month till she's back..zz..

Crashed Blog~

Hmm..I think my blog crashed..swt~
I couldn't upload any picture or change colour for the word..basically..the whole roll of task bar dissappeared..and i have no idea how to fix it..
This is the reason why i haven been updating any post in the past few weeks..i totally sian half when i login to this acct n see a big big flaw inside..roar!!

Oh well..i'll just make do with what i have now ba..for those who still cares to read my blog :)
Which i have no idea who still does anyway~ whatever..lifes too stressful to care for such small matter~
Life's been good for me this few months~ got a job~ earn some $$..bought some stuff which i craved for so long~ It's really rare that i'll spend so much on myself..lols~ OkOk..let me contain my excitement first~ i bought myself!! A Full Season set of "Grey's Anatomy" Season 1-4~
It really mean a lot to me~ i've been catching this series for years~ now i can it for life~ yeahyeah xD Well..i bought myself another book series call " house of night" as well~
It's pretty entertaining for me ar..partly due to it's fantansy storyline bout vampire..or rather vampyre in their case..anw..it's like harry potter + twilight add together~ a little romance from twilight~ n a little fantasy from harry potter~Those books are pretty good for me..except for the part that my favourite character turns out to be the big bad guy(girl)._.Oh..i really like vampire..and i have no idea why..lols..i'll be obsessed wit vampire stuff~story~anime~books~etcetc..don't look at me like i'm some freak pl0x..=S

Now..here's the bad part..ok..i'm not trying to say that my driving instructor is a bad teacher or something~
But seriously..i think he needs to go for anger management courses..zzz..Not like he dares to scold me or what~ He just Nags way too much..really..till the point i really wanna push him down the car n roll the tires over him!!
Well..sometimes he doesn't nag in a nice tone ok~ it's not my fault other cars are blocking the way~ There's not need to vent his frustration on my mistakes right? Btw..once he starts nagging~ he dun stop for the next hour or so~Argh!! He ask me WHY? i made a mistake..How am i suppose to know why? IF i was able to know why..i won't need him to teach me alr..isn't self taught better? Diao~He's totally being IRRITATING!!
Ok..mb i was the one that requires anger management..to be able to tolerate ppl's NAGGING!!

Anw~i can't upload any picture! So it'll just be words n words~ it's 3 weeks worth of complains to grumble bout~ Oh..i Just made my lampion n lvl twice~ Lols~ NPNT~ But can't upload~ oh well~

OH YA!! Schools officially starting..Next Week~ N Last week was still having some "school-starting" blues..sobs.. Mostly due to the fact that i needa change n adapt into a new environment~Best of all..it's filled with CHINA people T-T..Anw..Dou dun read my blog (her reason is because i'm being fine recently..so she doesn't check my blog to update herself on what's going on in my emo-self..lols..)So she won't get offended by what i write~ Btw..i dun really like indian/malay/christian/bagala~/china people~ I'm a racist..so? lalala~ of coz they are exceptions made to a certain few..who seems to be my good buddies~

Plus plus..whee~whahaha..i've bought~
3 new pairs of shoes~ ( a sneaker, a sandal, a semi-formal flat heels)
7 new sets of clothes~ ( coz there's 7 days per week )
2 new bag~ ( one for school, one for outting )
A new Baby G Transparent strap watch~ It's beautiful!! -.-Ok..the watch was a gift from my parents~ although my older $5 watch was working fine..
They say..i need a decent watch for my age~ it doesn't cost a lot..$100+ only
But i really appreciates their thought..n it's pretty meaningful to me~
It's a sign showing that they treated me as an adult alr~
though the..part of getting home everyday still stands~ and the part where they'll start calling after 11pm..lols
Well..i trusted our security more than they do..

Hmm..i took the QET today..the question i wrote an essay about is this "Friends are poor role model.Do your agree?" Lols..it reminds me of how i almost took up smoking months ago~ Fine..i wasn't really in a great shape..emotionally lar~ Seems like i've been through a lot this year~ No pain, No gain right?
Just that i remember luoluo telling me that when he smokes..his mind will go blank~ kinda releases his troubles~ I was super ulimate tempted to try~ plus..in the end..i thought if i ever got addicted..how am i suppose to pay so much for it..heyz..i'm not willing to give $10+ for 20 sticks to last me "who knows how long"..Great Job to the high tobacco taxes!! Lols..least i'm not smoking now ar..=X
Actually..Dou told me if i really needa take something up..she would want me to be a alcoholic rather than a smoker..Lols!! Coz she mention that smoking is 100% harmful..but alcohol can be good for your body at times~
Then again..alcohol..high,high,way high calories for some drinks._.
it just equates to fat,fat,way fat yiyi in the end~ Lols..so end up..i nv took up any~
Ok fine..i'm not dump enough to harm my ownself now ok..i do really take care de..least for now onwards lar
No matter how emotionally unstable i might be~I'll grease my Body well enough to keep it functioning normally~
the method..一哭 二闹 三上吊 is a nono usage in my case..i'm a strong woman~Lols

I always felt that i am indeed,a strong woman/lady? o.O..whatever~ I've strong pride~ Strong sense of equailty between sexes~ N i hate egoistic Male species..lols (not as much as liars though =P)

Oh..you've hear this sentense right..those who mind dun matters..those who matters dun mind~
Ok fine..i shall come clean here..more like come out of the closet~Lols..
I mean..quite a good handful of my friends knew alr~ Now i'm just making this public~
Actually..i've been telling the truth out recently~ not hiding or running away from it~
I always thought it's complicated..but..you just have to accept who i am~
though i understand that there are consequences to my actions..some that i'm pretty unwilling to accept and face-.- Argh!! I have long hair ok..i'm not really a butch though i dun wear skirt..lols~
I'm not really pretty but i'm friendly~ I'm cute n funny as well..blekx (self complimenting lar)
Hmm..how should i say~ i accepts anyone into my life..n i go purely by my feeling~
So if it happens that someone i like is a female~ i'll still go ahead with it..
What i need is a emotional link rather than physical requirements..i know it sounds prefectly fine..
But Somehow these qualities i needed..will be found on someone that happens to be a female at times..
N i dun feel like constraining my feelings due to physical barrier the "society" can't cross over~
I think my parents knew something bout it alr~ Haiz..i'm still working on this part!!
Those who knew are pretty cool with me~ It's as though nothing has happen..lols
Seriously..i dun like it when people are afraid of who i am..not that there is lar..
just that they tend to assume that i have intentions on them when i really really dun have ._.
p/s: it's the female ones that will do this..lols..just because i might like girls..doesn't mean u should take pre-caution on me..i might flirt..i might tease a lot..but my intentions are white clean please~
Oh..There's a part where..i will never fall for any of my friends..that i should emphasize on..
It's the truth..lols~ Anw..still the same thing ar..single but unavailable~lalala~