Turn Back Time

If only i could turn back time~
There's so much so much more things i would have...
Choose to do it in some alternative way~
There's so much so much more effort i would have..
put in to savage a broken relation~
But life's curel to those who don't cherish what you have..you do get what u sow~ Sigh!!

A week worth of blogging~

Woah..so fast 1 whole week pass alr~So much have happen..and yet so little worth mentioning..lols..so this post will consist of my whole week of "happening"

Maybe it was due to my lazy-ness to blog..perhaps it was due to my personal perferences to pick watching videos or playing maple rather than typing here..=X..bleks

Anw..My driving Test date is coming closer and closer..diao..i seriously think i CMI sia..N i was wondering..why have my screwed up brain choose manual driving rather than auto..it's like digging my own grave to carve a faster path to hell...roar!! The circuit road is really freaking hard=.=

I Still Misses Dou!! Argh!!

I think i'm mourning for Micheal Jackson..still looking around for his songs n videos..
n i can't stop playing his "you are not alone"..T_T

Recently..i figure out that I went back on my words =.= i can't find anywords to describe my feelings now..just feel " not very nice lor"..So many circumstances appearing..forcing me to change and react to it..majorly due to self-defense for my emotions/pride/or the stupidity of my tiny brain~
Prehaps i'm disapointed in myself..or disapointed to find that i have screwed my own image i have on the person that i had my words went back on..It's so complicated~ and the best part is that i dun have the courage...to face that person..to find out how much i matters after all this..
Really..everyone that have a share of my love..is sapping into my courage and corrupting my judgement
YES..i do get blinded by Love..it's just happens naturally..i can no longer be rational and fight for myself..

Then.......i felt a really strong urge to settle down~ And i'm getting the "envy" feeling for others again!! TMD!!
I guess i can't be that perfect ~ Those civic and moral educations that i'm receiving since primary school is practically flushed down the toilet..when it comes to my screwed up mentaily~
Haiz..must be a vegeterian to JI DE!! Needa meet more decent people~or rather..the "right" people~

The whole week since last sat--->tue i was working..leaving me only spare time at night to enjoy myself..i just probably spend my 10~2/3am everyday with my pink lappie~ well..to be more specific..10~12pm playing maple..in which 80% of the time i'm on my trader acct trading~ 20% on-ing my yiyi to chat..

It's not really my style to chiong long hours at work..but=.=..for the sake of $$..i guess it's worth it?
Well..since i'm back to maple..i have to say..certain standard amount of cash needs to be pump in!oh well~
It's just that sometimes.....i'm really doubting how much of a poor service i'm getting from asiasoft while paying them so much..just take a look at that SS below=.=It Kinda scare thhe hell outta me..i thought there's something wrong with my graphic card=.=..end up..all the attkers saw this scene too..end up..all dc..lols

The Known.."Transparent Zak Body 3" + all Vista Players Dc at B2=.=

Oh..Since i came back last week or so~ I've clear out all the worthy stuff through my trader..
But since..i manage to complete my 12 ilbi set =) I'm pretty happy with it~
In addition of the +9dex BSS i bought for 50mil~
YiYi's equip are settling down 1 by 1~
Next stop : Reverse Lampion (freaking 30 more timepiece)
P/s: Remember Dun sell the advanced Luk crystal T_T ( u know who u are ..=P)
I'll buy from u.......1 day....
Guess trainin starts after lampion appear on my hand..bleks~

Rain Rain

It's nice to sleep when it's raining..cooling~
it's like natural air- conditioning.. with no block nose as side effects~(for me lar)
Or rather..playing in the rain at times can be quite nice..=p..it's the same as playing in the shower..just that the water might be a little dirty lar~
It's not rainy season this month..but the weather seems to be working against my will~making me more n more pek chek=.= It always rains when i needa walk from the MRT to my workplace n vice versa~
I get drenched from head to toe upon completing my dail routine routh..freezing me like mad when i step into those air-conditioned places..
Ok..it sounds weird that i dun carry umbrella around, and yet my family is distributing umbrellas for a living~
Whatever lar..i'm not sick anyway~ LOLs..that's all that matter~
The weather is still nice..which kinda makes the rain worth it eventhough i'm drenched

Headache

Was chionging maple for the past two day..ok lar..bit no life~But haven really push myself to the limit for maple for sooooooooo long le..time do fly..one blink of eye..i was gone from maple for 4 months straight..lols..My BL misses me..=p..i misses them too~
End up i on one 2x drops to hunt for piece of time._. got 9 on thursday
Got pathetically 1 on friday=.= DIAO..ok lar..i only play like 3-4 hours with the twins..coz i wasn't feeling well
My Reverse Lampion~ T_______T when will i get it!!! ANGRY with myself!!
Seems like i'm old alr..body buai tahan dun sleep for 1 nite=.=
my head is practically exploding with headache when i did it._.
Kns..Profit Scarlion run is super easy to earn pls..it's like 9.8mil per person per run=.=
L>fixed party for profit run..i'm $.$..it's even faster than farming/trading pls
N i started my trading business again..wanna earn 450mil go VIP neck..LOL!! Must get it done by this year!!
But hor..i scare all my mesos goes to buying those P.O.T..so zzzz...
It's Angelina's birthday..but she doesn't have the mood to celebrate though..oh well~
Happy Birthday ar =)

Beanie

Safe n Sound journey, Dou!!

Best wishes~ hope that ya enjoying yourself there..blekx

Sry that i felt asleep._. It was unintentional~

Stood Still

Even when you stood still..freezing up your inner self

The world continues to spin without your presense

The world doesn't revolves for anyone -.- just accept the fact how insignificant one can be

Then work on it and become significant to those around me~

Because they deserve my care n concern, my attention, my sacrifises, my everything that within my limits to make them happy~

Lack of sleep

What happens when i lack of sleep--->it kinda leads to a super fouled mood YiYi~
well..my face turns black n scary..i dun feel like talking to anyone much more than smiling to anyone..
I can't even bother to reply much sms-es or calls..even if i did..my tone is kinda rude..=.=
Ok..1 thing i'm taught is that..i shouldn't throw my temper at anyone who has nothing to do with it..
but.................................................................it's so hard to do it when i'm tired
i just shoot anyone who come close to me ._. so it's time to STFU ba..till i recover from insomnia~

如果我变成回忆

Tank de new song "如果我变成回忆"..lols..i was thinking while listening to it
That if i ever turn into memory for anyone~..what will it be? watching micheal jackson go through all this..
Of coz..i was hoping it would be a positive one whenever someone thinks of me..
but things are always unexpected ._. well..when MJ died..everyone only remembers how much the king of POP have done for the society..the most touching thing is that everyone only wish that he can " rest in peace" ..forgiving all the crime he've done..i'm not a MJ fan ok..lols..
Afterall, "he broke through the racial barrier in music before obama break through the racial barrier in politics"..lols..

There's a point in my life that i felt seriously unwantable n broke into pieces that's beyond repair
but end up..i was still able to mend myself~ Lols..human are really made to heal over time~
I was once a "self sacrifice noble freak"..saying things like as long as that person is happy..everything that i sacrifise doesn't matter..but then..am i that noble??
OK..not a matter bout nobility..it's more about stupidity..lols..so................yeah!
Entering the "change" programme in my brain~

My kawaii Mum

She message bo bian as..bo "变"!!

Lols

Ultimatum

I think everyone has made some ultimatum at some point of their life

Same goes for me bah..but most of the time..

These ultimatum is set by myself and known only for myself then enforcing it on others..lols

I know it's unfair to those who have no idea of what's going on..

But usually the conditions have to be met unknowingly without me suggesting of what to do..=.=

Hmm..i'm 100% sure that i'm being force to do something so extreme

I did it all due to self defense..be it physically / mentally or emotionally~

It's an instinct to protect one self..

N it takes a hell lottas determination and will to carry out that ultimatum as well

It's never easy either side..or most probably a lot more on my side..

But ultimately..i don't think i've regretted doing those ultimatum i've set

I believe that everything that happens in my life happens for a reason and cause

Just like the crashing of my modem miracle-ly..just nicely..a few months before my A levels..

terminating my only source of distraction to allow me to concentrate on my studies..

I'm thankful to all kind of God for that..lols..

I wonder if it's just pure fate..or am i just pure lucky